The View From Here – Anybody Else Feel “Done”? Or Is It Just Me?

By: Carrie Buchanan

30/7/2020

Carrie Buchanan

I don’t know about you guys – but I’m feeling kinda “done”.  Throw my hands up in the air, “I surrender”, kinda done.

It’s been a long road, and even though we can do more, and go out more, and be around more people – social bubbles, increased gathering numbers etc – it still feels like we have a long way to go.

Every week feels like it has brought new challenges.  We’ve had to adjust and change to so many different things.  It’s been HARD on all of us and I think we are all feeling tired.

I consider myself a positive person, but this has been hard.  I’m lucky.  So lucky.  I’m healthy, my family is healthy.   I’m still working – even if it’s been from home.  I really have NOTHING to complain about.

But I’m starting to really FEEL that this pandemic has taken it’s toll on my mental health and emotional health too and I’m not afraid to say “I don’t feel okay”.  At least not today.  In this moment.

I know there are families grieving the loss of a loved one.  My heart breaks for you.  There is no greater pain.

I know there are people dealing with loss of a job or a business.   I am so sorry – I know it feels impossible to recover.

I think everyone is hurting on some level right now.  We’re all feeling it.  We’re exhausted from trying to keep it together.  Work at home, take care of our kids, find ways to stay connected even when we’re apart.  Same space. Same people.

I’m worried that I’m starting to like being away from people.  I worry I won’t want to go back in the world.  Us shy people have a hard time as it is.  All this time locked away from the world has made it really easy for me to get comfortable being the shy girl again.  And honestly, some people aren’t being the kindest, most loving people online.  We are seeing a lot of ugliness on social media, and it’s discouraging.  Doesn’t make me want to hurry back into the world.

I wonder if we will ever feel the same as we did before Covid-19.  Will we ever go back to feeling comfortable in a public space?  Or will that six feet apart, wash your hands – constantly be in our heads, reminding us of the virus that has the ability to destroy so many lives.

I guess we continue to take it day by day.  Do what we can.   And we will get through.  Just know that if you’re not always having a good day, you aren’t alone.

 

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